Almost Forgotten

Honesty... is such a lonely word... Every one is so untrue.
Honesty... is hardly ever heard... And mostly what I need from you.

This is an old song, now sang by Beyonce. She did a very good version out of this old tune.
And the words of this song made me reflect much on this Sunday night.
It is always a horrible feeling.
Always.

CNY NOTES

Although its the usual hang-out, usual makan session, its never boring for me after all. Dad said that we could skip doing the reunion dinner this year 'cos he was feeling monotonous about the whole event. I felt otherwise. It is only this once a year 'compulsory' gathering that we get to sit down together to eat! Furthermore, I love steam boat which I dont have the luxury to eat it every time out in those restuarants! So I love reunion! I love CNY eve! And believe it or not, I was watching KUNGFU HUSTLE the 3rd time last night! Well, its Stephen Chow anyway... Hope everyone will enjoy your CNY! Cheers!

Happiness or Pleasure

See, I have not been here for a while, like almost 2 months. I dont think many people I know read my blog so it is quite okay. Hmmm. I am getting tired of my work. The 'event' that will be launching on the 1st of Jan 2009 has been giving me hateful thoughts towards people and systems. I do not know if this is the greatest good for the greatest number so that a small portion of us would need to sacrifice to make everyone happy. Nowsaday, I find myself lacking of passion in my duties, towards my work especially. I dont give a damn at all if they want to give me a higher grade - promotion. Or are they going to increase my salary? I DONT GIVE A DAMN. I just want to finish my studies. And hopefully, things will be better in March 09, at my workplace that I do not have to think about leaving. Hubby said that I will make the decision to stay or leave. Leave as in to move to KL which most of my friends are very supportive of me doing it! Honestly, I still love to stay in Singapore 'cos I love being carefree without tha tag of another person. See... Why do I get married at the first place? Well, the idea of cohabitation will never work for me. Now, what am I talking about at 2.12am in the morning? Yes... I am here babbling. There will be a paper in this late evening (7pm!) and I am trying my best to study! And so, I am sick! OF EVERYTHING!

~ such unhappiness ~

~ so which is important - happiness or pleasure? ~

Sunday Stuff

I hate Sundays. Simply 'cos I need to go back to work on Monday. There is always mixed feelings with some hang-over of emotions on Sundays. The only time I loved my Sundays was when I was not working for a while, I was not with Yadi (the time when we had a short break-up while he was studying overseas) and I never felt so care-free and stress-free and I just spent my Sundays at the beaches. Listening to my favourite songs on the mini-player and sipping my favourite Burbon Coke or Vodka Lime... Sometimes even when it rained I would still hang around there, soaking my skin in the rain and who cared then if I fell sick or not. No need MC!!! Hahahahhaha... SNAP! Wake up! Face the reality now! GOSH... When can I do that? First of all, I need to lose some weight! Hahahahhaha......

Talking about my emotion, I gathered that sad and bad things seemed to happen on Sunday for me... Look here!

1. Emo One: Long time ago, Yadi had to go away for his overseas studies, the first time and the past times, he always left on a Sunday evening.


2. Emo Two: Now, Yadi still needs to go away to KL for his work, the first time and every other time, he always leaves on a Sunday evening.


3. Emo Three: My beloved late granny passed away on a Sunday.


4. Emo Four: My beloved late grandpa also passed away on a Sunday.

Well, I guess its different stages of our life. How to stick to the same forever, right? Better or worse, we just gotta move our butt and go on...

On a happier note, I went to cut my hair yesterday. I love short hair but my face looks bigger. Thats why I said I need to lose weight. Then I also collected my Amore Challenge goodies bag. Happy la... For a while!

AMORE CHALLENGE BAG

AMORE CHALLENGE GOODIES

Saturday Stuff

After 2 days of rest, medical leave though, I am much better. There are some things I need to do today.

1. Get a hair cut
2. Go to the bank.
3. Visit my Dad
4. Collect some stuff
5. Do my assignment

Randomly, I will have to do one or the other today. As least right now, I already started my assignment on Ethical Issues. The issue is, I need to come out with an ethical dilemma as an example for the essay. It seems so easy and yet, I have no idea what kind of dilemma I want to present. I know I face such issues at times during work but I do not totally handle them myself. I guess I should be asking my colleagues who are always put into challenge in such situation.

Anyhoo, I decided not to go for the Aerobics Challenge since I just recovered from the sickness. I am going to pop by later to see if I can collect the stuff. Well, I can still present my MC if they do not believe me. How strict can they be, I paid for the challenge too! It aint free! Now that the world is in recession, what is more than to bargain for a good cause!? Hahah...

Seems like it is going to rain. I will have lunch and make my move before its too late. I am really a very busy woman! Secretly, I also do not wish to meet any visitors that might come this afternoon... Anti-social mood today! Everyday! Gosh! Whats really eating me man!?

False Delusions

I am not a pessimistic person but towards skepticism and cynicism. Is that a contradiction? I do not want to be complex but humans are. The more simplicity you are looking at, the more complexity you will find yourself in. Do you think so? Whenever I am sick, I get false delusions. It can be scary when I dreamt of people whom I know died. I dreamt that animals talking to me. I even thought I was in a deja vu and I almost could not differentiate day and night. I must be really sick, isn't it? Hahahaha... Whats wrong with uttering rubbish? I really don't know. Bow over.

Gathering Phobia

Gathering at Melacca

Yeah. Its the time of the year again where gatherings after gatherings happened. I am very tired. Thinking of going to work the next day does not make me feel any better. In fact its bitter. I was at Melacca and travelling was tiring. Meetings and greetings somehow became a chore. I wondered what will it be like if I am a full-time homemaker. I might enjoy gatherings afterall cos I would be busy preparing dishes and cookies and having the fun of seeing people eating what I made. Hmmm... I do not feel like going to work. I wish I could follow hubby back to KL. I never stop missing him...